New Year's Eve Party!!!

For the first year in about eight, I don't have a boyfriend for the New Year's. That means I get to have FUN!!! Not only am I going to have fun, but I'm going to my first ever New Year's Eve party! I'm going to be the date of my friend Frank, one of the sweetest guys I have ever met. Now, if I could only pick out what to wear!! I've bought three new dresses for the event, and have no clue which one to wear. That's where my friends come in!! I'm going to be damn sexy!! Just wait until I post the pictures--and trust me, there will be pictures!!

Come On Now Guys... Are We Surprised!!!!

You're a BOMBSHELL.You're kitten-like and sexy. You don't need expensive rocks, you're so classy you overpower your gems. You tend to put glamour before comfort, but it doesn't take much for you to look glamourous anyhow.Men beg for a chance with you, and you can take your pick because, frankly, you're too good for almost all of them.

This was from a quiz taken on Quizilla, but I could not get the link posted up on here. Maybe I'm just a little ditzy!!! But then again, I don't think that would surprise any of you guys that know me!!!

Happy Bunny!!!

you are the cute but psycho happy bunny. You
adorable, but a little out there. It's alright,
you might not have it all, but there are worse

which happy bunny are you?
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I told her I would do it, so without further ado...

The Many Faces of Mimi

Normal Mimi (well, almost--this was at the contest!!!)


Vampira Mimi


Ozzy Mimi


Mimi the Sweet Transvestite (Next to J.T., the birthday boy who was very happy at the time!!)

Your Fabulous Blog Master In The Spotlight

Yes, my dear friends, that is me. This picture was taken on December 13, 2004 at the karaoke semi-finals at Walt's. I was singing "Uninvited" by Alanis Morrissette (which by the way is an incredibly difficult and challenging song to sing!!!). Anyways, I love the picture!! Just wanted to share.

Four More Crazy Bitches--Well, Two New Ones For The Collection!!!

Aren't we pretty???

Darlen and Mimi

Kate and Deborah

The truth is revealed!!!

Just a little FYI to everyone out there. In case you didn't already know it, I'm a klutz!! Ha Ha!!


You are a klutz. You don't have a really good
balance. You have a really bright attitude
and like to party. You see past the all the
looks on people because since your not perfect
you don't see why you should judge others that
way.

Who are you inside????? (LOTS OF RESULTS)girls only
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Four Crazy Bitches

Karin's 28th Birthday at Walt's

Heather, Karin, Kate, and Deborah

One more day

I don't know about you, but Christmas has completely snuck up on me this year. I'm so not in the spirit of anything right now. The radio plays nothing but Christmas music, so I'm constantly surfing the channels looking for non-Christmas music. I guess the only solace I have is the fact that all my shopping is done!! Deborah and I went to Wal-Mart last night around midnight and finished it all, then stayed up until forever wrapping presents!! I hate it because I've not had the money to buy presents for everyone that I wanted to buy for. Actually, I bought for everyone that I love and stuff, but I didn't get them the gifts that I really wanted to get them. Money's been so tight due to medical bills and car trouble and stuff. Next year, I'm starting in January!!!!!!!!

Merry Christmas to all!! And to all--watch the Christmas Story marathon!!!!

Skinny people irritate me! Especially when they say things like, "You know, sometimes I just forget to eat." Now I've forgotten my address, my mother's maiden name, and my keys. But I've never forgotten to eat. You have to be a special kind of stupid to forget to eat.

I want to be in love in a movie!

It seems like every movie that I love is about the idea of falling in love and how wonderful love is. I totally agree that love is one of the most blessed gifts we have, but the whole Hollywood version of falling in love is very unpractical. I mean, how many of us are put in near death situations where we are rescued by a dashing prince charming who is not only drop-dead gorgeous, but also has a phenomenal job, excellent salary, a top-notch home, and enough time to try to court us? With my luck, Barney Fife would rescue me!! (Not that the whole Barney Fife scenario would be such a bad thing. I’m sure Barney is a really sweet guy deep down inside, but that just would not make for a good movie!!)

So, for 24 years I’ve had the Hollywood version of love forced down my throat, and I’ve come to a realization: I don’t think I’ve ever been in love. In fact, I’m sure that I have not. I was with someone for almost six years, and I know that I did love him, but I don’t think I was ever in love with him. I was more in love with the idea of being in love, if that makes any sense. I’ve never had a relationship with someone that was built completely on trust, equality, and mutual respect and friendship (well, not romantically). That is what I want. I’m sure that finding that will be like finding the proverbial needle in the haystack, but hey—I guess part of the fun is in the hunt, huh?

Karaoke Finals

Well, last night was the final competition of the karaoke contest. I think it went over really well—just a little long and stuff. The whole thing was filmed for FOX 61, a local station here. That was a trip. There were lights all over and people started freaking out. I was not in the actual contest, but I did get to sing with all the lights and it was a little intimidating. I think the best part of the whole evening was the fact that I got to sit and listen to some of the greatest singers I know—who are also some of my best friends! Everyone was so incredible, but unfortunately only four people walked away with money. Four out of fifty!! What a thrill it must have been to win that!!

Good food, good friends, and perhaps... a hot fireman (well--at least in my dreams!!)

So, Deborah and I went to Wal-Mart to do some last minute Christmas shopping. I had this brilliant idea to make an appetizer dish that is truly phenomenal. It’s really easy—just cocktail wieners wrapped in bacon and covered in brown sugar. You bake them on 450 degrees for about 25 minutes. We did all that. My friend told us to cover them in brown sugar—we SO did that. We put so much brown sugar on them that when it melted, it went down in the bottom of the oven and started a fire!! Leave it to me—the Goddess of all things Domestically Challenged—to burn down a house while making something so easy!! Oh, well, just another day in the life of a blonde!!

Anyways, the Christmas shopping is not done. The appetizer was actually really good. I did not burn down the house, and I learned a few lessons to practice next time I make the goods!!

Karaoke Semi-Finals

Sunday and Monday were the semi-finals in the karaoke contest at Walt’s. Sunday night they did the country category and Monday they did the pop category. I had qualified in the pop category, so I had to perform. Big fun!! I got all dolled up with Karin (also in the pop category) at Deborah’s house, and then we went out. I sang “Uninvited” by Alanis Morrissette, which is one heck of a hard song to do. Karin did “Whenever, Wherever” by Shakira and shook her groove thing all through the song. The night before was the country category, and a number of my buddies performed then as well.

So, after the contestants went, the judges chose twelve singers to move on. Karin was selected, but unfortunately I was not. It was kind of funny—everyone was shocked, but I just laughed it up. I didn’t even care. It’s just a little contest, and I have a feeling I know who is going to win the pop anyways… and it would not have been me!! The voice I have, but I’m not so big on stage presence. I’m going to be posting some pictures from the contest up here too, but I don’t know when.

The trouble with cars and credit

What a crazy week this has been. My car, my darling little car broke down on Thursday night close to my friends house. We pushed it (or rather had a guy in a truck push it) back to the house. I stayed with them until Sunday when my car was fixed and thank God it did get fixed.

So, anyways, I decided to go look at a new car (well, a new-to-me car). After work I went to the Saturn dealership and spoke to someone about a VUE I saw on the website. I drove it, decided I wanted it, and started filing the papers. After what seemed like an eternity, he told me that I did not qualify for a loan on a used car, but I could get a loan on a new car. What's up with that?? I drove the new one, and decided to see what the payments would be. It was unreal--$500 a month for 60 months!! That's almost half of my take-home pay. So, needless to say, I am still driving my darling little vehicle.

Hey its a great car. Yeah, it may have been wrecked a few times and the air bag may be out and it may have no heat, but it still gets me from point A to point B. Plus, I cleaned it out so it"s actually clean inside!! I can take anyone I want anywhere I want, and people can actually fit in my backseat. Last week, I took some friends out, and Deborah got in the backseat and the first thing out of her mouth was, "Hey I've never been in the backseat of your car! Yeah, Im a packrat and practically live in my car.

Whatever!! I really can't complain too terribly much. I have a car that is reliable and gets me around. Plus, I don't have a car payment!!! Yeah me!!

Christmas Spirit

It’s the Monday before the Monday before Christmas. That means I have less than two weeks to take care of all of my Christmas shopping. That means I have less than two weeks to come up with enough money to take care of my Christmas shopping. This is the part of Christmas that I can not stand. It’s all become too commercialized. Santa this… Frosty that… What about the elves… Gimmie a new pony… I need a tickle-me-elmo or whatever the big toy is this year… It’s all about buy this, buy that, I want, you need, money, money, MONEY!!! Why can’t we all remember that Christmas is not about the presents or the shopping. Hey—if the Grinch can figure it out, maybe there is hope for America.

FUCK!! FUCK!! FUCK!!

He wouldn’t even hug me. He acted as if it bothered him to even talk to me. Do I repulse him? Do I smell bad? Can I not have a friend? Or is it her—she can’t be my friend. Well, buddy—you’re pretty messed up in the head. I love you both so much, and I’m happy to call you my friends. So, fuck you. I can’t help it if I am who I am. I didn’t ask to be me. I also didn’t ask to have one of the greatest friends in the world (and obviously she didn’t ask to be with someone as fucked up as you). Things happen. I don’t control the world. I can’t tell you what to do. I’m not changing who I am for anyone, especially an asshole like you. Fuck you and your grand old horse you rode in on.

Perfect

I’ll live through you,
I’ll make you what I never was.
If you’re the best, then maybe so am I
Compared to him, compared to her.
I’m doing this for your own damn good.
You’ll make up for what I blew.
What’s the problem?
Why are you crying?
Alanis Morrissette, “Perfect”

Each person is only given one life to live, one chance to make something of themselves. If you spend your whole life trying to live through another person, you are doing yourself a great injustice. Life is what you make of it, not what someone else tells you to make. Yeah, you’ll make mistakes, but it is through those mistakes that you will learn and grow.

I am only one person. I am who I am, and the only reason that I am who I am is because I have lived and learned from my life. I have memories of great times that I have been through as well as scars from the hardest times of my life. Each scar, though, has a silver lining. It was by those scars that I have found my inner strength. It was by those scars that I learned many of life’s little lessons. It was by those scars that I came to the realization that I am my own best friend and most faithful ally.

I’m very proud of the person I have become. I’m strong, independent, and willing to take on most any challenge life throws at me. The one challenge I wish I never had to deal with is my family. Not my whole family, but a few members. Those certain members should really consider banding together and forming a club—The Chattanooga Chapter of the Bitter Broads of America Society, or CCBBAS for short.

I’m never good enough for them. I can never dress right. No matter what career choice I make, it’s just not right. My success rate is negative in their eyes because I’m following my dreams, not theirs.

I’ve never stood up to them. I know that I’m strong, but I don’t know if I’m strong enough to deal with the repercussions of a confrontation with the CCBBAS. I believe that their main purpose in life is to convert all those independent, happy souls into bitter broads like them. You know, suck out all the good energy and leave nothing but a hollow empty shell.

I may not have a job teaching. I may not have a boyfriend. I may still live with my father (who is the sworn enemy of the CCBBAS). I may be a lot of things that they don’t like, but I’ll guarantee you one thing. The one reason they dislike me so much is because I’m happy. Yes, I am happy, and no matter how much they try to cut me down and hurt me with their words, I will remain happy. Granted, I’ll have a few moments of downtime, but in the end, I’ll rise above their bitterness and be genuinely happy with the person I have become and the life that I am living.

Life is what you make of it. Whether you’re happy with your life or not is you decision. Set your goals high and strive to reach them. Live like every day is your last. Do not regret the past, but hold the past high in your mind as a learning experience. Do what you want to do, and don’t let anyone else try to steer you down a path you don’t want to be. Hey—you only get one chance to live. Do it right and do it your way.

My Birthday

Well, yesterday was my birthday. For those of you who know me, I've had one hell of a week. Yesterday more than made up for it. It was probably the best birthday that I have ever had.

I went to work, and Keva, our facilitator brought in hot Krispy Kreme doughnuts. I'm such a glutton for those, and my thighs will hate me later!! Anyways, we decorated our room and had a blast all day. It was sort of like a party for all the December and late November babies.

After work, my family met up at Red Lobster for dinner. I had the biggest plate of crab legs and shrimp, and basically made a fool of myself.

Later on, I went to Deb's house and hung out with her and crazy Karin who were very sneaky. We were all hanging around the living room, when Deb asked me to go to her car and get something. I thought she meant something else, so I went back in and told her it was not there. She said, "No, my jacket." So I went to the car and got the jacket. I brought it in and they were laughing so loud. You see, there was a HUGE pink (my favorite color) bag in the front seat, under her jacket, that I was supposed to bring in with me. Sometimes, I really can be a dumb blonde!!

Anywho, they started telling me about the whole thing that was supposed to take place--they were going to have a cake and everything. I had told Karin I was bringing the rest of my cookie cake, so she called Deb (who was worried about not having candles for the cake) and told her. Then, when I showed up with about half of a cookie cake, Deb (unbeknownst to me) called Karin and told her that I had ruined it all--I had brought a cake. (If you don't know Deb, she's a bit of a dingbat, but I love her just the same!!)

So, I had a blast on my birthday. Plus--I got my hair straightened. No more frizzies!! Yeah!!

I always knew that looking back on my tears would make me laugh, but I never knew that looking back on my laughter would make me cry.

Family may be forever, but friends are family eternal

Thanksgiving Day: a day to give thanks, a day to celebrate everything in the world that you are grateful for, a day to spend with family, a day of rest… Whatever. My Thanksgiving was anything but thankful, celebratory, or restful. My Thanksgiving was a day from Hell. Thank God for all my friends. Without them, I don’t know where I would be right now.

I was blessed (I guess that’s what you could say) with a family that is absolutely, totally, completely, and utterly nuts. My paternal family is wonderful… nuts, but still wonderful. My maternal family is just plain bonkers. No matter what happens, they drive me absolutely crazy—and not crazy happy. I’m saying that they drive me so crazy that I want to be as far away from them as I possible can.
So, another *happy* Thanksgiving, and what do I have to show for it? Nothing but a broken heart and a river of tears that just does not seem to stop flowing. I’ve had plenty of bad holidays. Hell—most every holiday comes too soon for me, and I never have enough time to prepare for the misery of the day. This year takes the cake for bad holidays.

Being bitched out is one thing, but to be bitched out by family is another thing in and of itself. A family is supposed to love you unconditionally. A family is supposed to be supportive of you in all your decisions. A family is supposed to care. A family is supposed to stand together. That is a family. I guess what I got were the rejects--the ones that broke the mold, the ones that were not quite right, the ones that fell into the shallow end of the gene pool (head first, no less).

I’m never good enough. I’m never smart enough. I can never live up to the expectations that they have set for me. No job is good enough. No lifestyle is godly enough. No clothing can disguise me enough to make me seem like I fit in with the wolves. They look nice on the outside, but inside they are nothing more than wolves feeding on the essence of me.

I always feel so old after the holidays. It’s almost as if the time between Thanksgiving and New Year’s goes by so slow that I age a whole decade during the time frame. When I was a child I rejoiced all through the holidays. They were fun and exciting. I never had to worry about what I could do wrong, say wrong, or look wrong. Now, my friends call me and tell me to come over on the holidays just to give me an alibi—a reason to leave my family.

It’s sad really. When I think about it, I become so upset. I’m supposed to be the good child. I am always there—every holiday, every birthday, and even when I am not supposed to be there. I try to call, but my schedule makes it hard to keep in touch. I try to live with the fact that they will never see me as who I am through their nit-picking eyes. I’m a strong person, but it’s so hard to remain strong when it feels as if the whole world is closing in on you.

I was born into a family that cared about me. I was raised in a family that, on the outside, seemed to be almost perfect. I now know that it was all the numerous imperfections I dealt with that gave me the strength I have today, and made me the person I am. I’m a good person, but in their world I’m no more than a drunken, tattooed, stupid, recluse of a person.

Family is the one thing that you cannot get rid of. You can lose those extra pounds. You can lose that asshole of a boyfriend that you are dealing with. You can lose any material possession under the sun. You can’t lose family. Lucky for me, though, I have friends that keep me sane.
I am very fortunate to have some of the greatest friends in the world. Some I’ve known for a long time and some I’ve known only a short while, but I know no matter what I can always depend on them. They are my rock. They are my one true constant in life. They keep me sane in my crazy, mixed-up life.

My friends are numerous. I have quite a lot of friends. True friends though, I can only count on one hand. Those few true friends are always there for me regardless. They will always love me and care about me no matter what happens. If I fuck up, they will tell me. If I need anything, I can call them. I love them. My true friends are worth more to me than gold. They are my real family when my biological family lets me down.

I am not one who trusts easily. Life has taught me to be cautious of who I open up to. Because of this, I only have about three people who know every side of me. One I’ve known for years… since kindergarten. The others I’ve known only a short time, but I feel as close to them as I do the other. We’re the same. We’re all equal. We help each other out and live in a world where together we can do no wrong. I’m stronger with my friends than I am alone, and I know that nothing is impossible, no mountain is too high, and no problem is too big for me when I’m with my true friends.

So, during the holidays—the season of goodwill on earth and peace for all mankind—I am blessed to call my true friends my family. I am the richest person on earth because of those that I love and care about and who I know love and care about me too.

I could really fall for him. He’s wonderful, sensitive, funny, and he really and truly cares about me. I could really fall for him. So, what’s the problem?

I have not had a real relationship in about ten months. Those ten months have been the greatest times in my life. I have truly evolved as a person and become stronger and more independent. I don’t need a man to be myself. Maybe, I’m afraid that by jumping into a relationship, I would be compromising my independence. I would become half of a whole. I can’t do that. I am one person. I do not want to be referred to as a part of something. I am not someone’s better half. I’m myself. 100% me.

But, he’s so wonderful. I’m so confused. I’m so scared. I’m just so frustrated. I want to be in a relationship again—one that is built on love and mutual trust and understanding. I know that ours most likely would be. He sees me as an equal. He knows me as a friend. My friends really like him. Hell—I really like him.

So, why is it so hard? What is a girl to do? Do I jump… take the plunge? Or do I sit around and wait for something to happen? I’ve never been one to be clueless. I’m not dumb. I’m intelligent, so why do I feel as if I know nothing?

Thanksgiving... Another "glorious" holiday

I remember when holidays were fun. The older I get, the more holidays seem to lose their meaning. When I was a child, I relished all my holidays. My family would spend time at my grandmother’s house and my aunt’s house. We would be out most of the day and we always had a great time.

Now, I dread the holidays. Spending time with my dad’s family is a great thing. I enjoy all the time that I spend there, but going to see my mom’s family is another story.

I’m never good enough. I can never seem to do anything right. Today is Thanksgiving. I spent a few hours at my mom’s house with my sisters and my grandmother. Everything was going great until I mentioned something about my aunt (my mom’s sister). The minute I brought her up, Gran started going off on me about respect… I should respect my mother. I should call my mother. I should not call my aunt so much because she is not my mother.

Respect, I understand. But, how am I supposed to respect someone who does not respect me at all. I don’t know what it is. I think maybe it’s a jealousy issue. I’m a great person. I’m independent. I enjoy life and cherish every minute of it. My mom’s a very bitter person. When she and my dad divorced, she began to get every joy out of cutting my dad down. It’s one thing to do that with friends, but to talk about my dad in front of my is another thing completely. I hate it, and she won’t stop regardless of how many times I tell her to.

Christmas is exactly one month away, and now I am dreading it even more. My aunt and uncle will be there. It’s going to be awkward. Plus, I’ll get all sorts of grief because my gifts won’t be good enough. I won’t be doing anything they want. I’m not teaching. I’m working at the same company as my dad. If only they would support me, then none of this stuff would be going through my head.

With the help of God and my friends, I know that I can get through the holidays. I don’t know what I would do without them. Granted, I wish that my family was more normal, instead of putting the “fun” in “dysfunctional,” we should be just having fun.

Friends come and go. Family is forever. You’re born with them. You live with them. I guess the only way to deal with family is to keep your cool. Live with the fact that they are not going anywhere, and take everything they say with a grain of salt.

Learning is an adventure

“People who don’t think probably don’t have brains; rather they have grey stuff that’s blown into their heads by mistake.” --Winnie The Pooh

I think that we’ve all been there. That moment in time when you know that nothing is ever going to be the same. Everything that once was so stable is about to turn into total and utter chaos. For me, that moment was my high school graduation.

I went through the same school system from kindergarten until graduation, so many of the people I graduated with had been in classes with me as long as I could remember. I grew up with them. I shared my triumphs and disappointments with them. They were always there. Five days a week I knew that I would see them. All that stopped at graduation.

I was stepping out into a whole new world—a world of uncertainty, a world of change, a world that I had no idea about. I was excited, but at the same time scared to death. My friends that I grew up with were no longer going to be with me every day. We swore we would keep in touch, but in the whirlwind of life after high school, we rarely had time for anything more than the occasional phone call or e-mail.

So, it was just me. I remember my first day of college very well. It was a huge transition for me. In high school I knew everybody. I was involved in clubs and extra-curricular activities. I knew the school’s layout backwards and forwards and could get anywhere with my eyes closed. Now, I was in college. I didn’t know anyone. I didn’t know where I was going. I didn’t even know what I was going to be studying. I just felt so small.

That’s when it all happened. I realized that I was no longer a girl in school. I had become a woman with a world of opportunities just waiting to be explored. I could be anything I wanted to be, and I knew that if I worked hard enough I would be something. I threw myself into my studies. I took so many general education courses I thought I would go crazy, but I did learn something—everything is exciting, and everything is worth learning if you don’t know.

I discovered that learning is more than just textbooks and exams. Learning is an adventure. The things you learn make you more interesting, more knowledgeable, and more capable of handling the blows that life throws you. It gives you something to talk about.

I had a teacher in school who used to always say, “no question is stupid if you don’t know the answer.” I always thought that was a strange saying, but the older I became the more I realized how true that saying is. If you don’t know the answer to something, do not live in ignorance. Ask someone or look it up. Choose your adventure and grow with it.

In My Life I've Learned...

• Sometimes the only person who wants to listen to you is you.
• Blood is thicker than water… and harder to clean up.
• There is no one greater than God.
• Sometimes failure is the biggest success.
• Find something you like doing and stick with it.
• You are the best friend you will ever have.
• What goes around comes around.
• True friends are more valuable than gold.
• Don’t count your chickens before they hatch.
• Never give up.
• Always dream.
• Set goals and strive to achieve them.
• Laughter is the best medicine.
• Friends come and go, but family is forever.
• Love is never easy—it takes work.
• Never stop learning.
• A smile can brighten everyone’s day.
• The sun also rises.
• When God closes a door, he opens a window.
• A person’s a person no matter how small.
• Even the grinch had a heart.
• In the face of adversity, stand tall.
• Laugh.
• Life doesn’t always turn out the way you planned.
• Life has no blueprints or roadmaps.
• No one can run your race.
• Learning is an adventure.
• Don’t sweat the small stuff.
• Even the most perfect rose has thorns.
• Choose your friends wisely.
• Create.
• A smile is always better than a frown.
• The most beautiful rainbows come after the most thunderous showers.
• Set your expectations high.
• If you have nothing intelligent to say, shut up!
• Keep a positive attitude.
• Life is 1% inspiration and 99% perspiration.
• Act as if it were impossible to fail.
• Cherish your memories.
• Consider yourself lucky if you can count your true friends on one hand.
• Be smarter than other people, but don’t tell them so.
• Look for silver linings.
• Shoot for the moon. Even if you fall, it will land you among the stars.
• Be like a duck. Calm on the surface, but always paddling like the dickens underneath.
• Think outside the box.
• Expect the unexpectable.
• Be yourself. Don’t try to conform to society’s expectations of what you should be. If you can’t be yourself, who will be you?
• Integrate color.
• Through pain comes strength.
• Age is merely a state of mind.
• Life is too important to be taken seriously.
• Family: You’re born with them, you have to live with them. You can’t get rid of them. You just have to deal with them.
• You can’t change others. You can only change yourself.
• Imagine.
• Learn to let go.

My Book

I've decided to write a book. Not the kind of book with a plot and characters and all, but rather a book about my life. You know, stories and anecdotes from my life that could be beneficial to others. I'm only 23 (well, not for long. My birthday's in less that two weeks!!), but I've been through a lot of shit in my life. I think that some of it could be beneficial to others--what I've learned and all. I've got a whole list of topics too--some are your general cliques... what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Some are quotes (my favorite, "A person is a person no matter how small" by Dr. Suess). Anyways, it really doesn't matter if the book ever gets published. I'll probably have kinkos make some copies and distribute them among my closest friends (you know who you are if you should be one of the select few!). I'll try to post a list of some of the topics one of these days.

I want to be in love in a movie...

I know that all you ladies out there know what I'm talking about. I want to be in love. I want the fairy tale. I want prince charming. I want the perfect man--intelligent, sensitive, handsome, witty, charming, and wonderful in every way. I want a man who will love me and treat me the way I want to be treated. I want Richard Gere in Pretty Woman (only minus the hooker part), Bill Pullman in While You Were Sleeping, Billy Crystal in When Harry Met Sally, Hugh Grant (minus the hooker part there) in Notting Hill. You know, the all around wonderful, somewhat goofy (sometimes), phenomenal guy. But, where does a simple girl find her Edward, Jack, Harry, or William??

Work is Great

So, I started my new job last Monday. It is so great. I mean I worked 40 hours this week and don't even feel like I did. I LOVE IT!! Plus I'm working with computers. Yeah! Anyways, I'm getting ready to go out, so I'll try and post more tomorrow.

It's Going to be a Manic Monday!!!

Well, tomorrow I will have to get up at 6:30 am for my new job. I'm going to be a customer service representative at Blue Cross Blue Shield of Tennessee, a large insurance company here. Now, 6:30 is really early for me considering I'm used to getting to bed around 3:00 am. So, it's off to bed early tonight. It's just now 10:15, and I'm hoping to get sleepy within an hour or so. That means I can get about seven hours of much needed sleep. That is, if all goes well. Knowing me, I'll be up most of the night wondering what's going to happen tomorrow on my first day of training... Wondering if I'm going to get along with the others in the training group... Wondering what I'm going to wear... Wondering what my supervisor will be like... Basically just wondering. Anyways, I'm going to get off this thing and try to get some sleep. Maybe I'll read a book or watch a movie. Something to help me sleep. If you have any suggestions, let me know cause until I get this schedule under my belt, I'm going to need all the help I can get!!

As the blonde turns

You know, my life is really crazy. I think sometimes my life should be the basis of a soap opera. You know, something like As the Blonde Turns. I would be the smart and sophisticated, yet humorous leader of the town. I would, of course, have my sidekicks who would be loyal to me. However, in my soap opera, my sidekicks would not be cold, heartless bitches who would stab me in the back. There would be plenty of drama (because in my circle of friends, drama is very prevalent!! We would not even have to pay writers because we could come up with it on our own!!). There would also be plenty of comedy (gee... maybe I should think about making this a prime-time show!!). Anyways, life is wierd. Life is crazy. Life can be madness. But you know what... even with all the wierdness, craziness, and madness, I would not change a think about my life!!

Relationships

It's been a long time since I've really dated anyone seriously. I mean, I've met many guys who are really nice, but just not my type. My last boyfriend and I were together for almost six years. I've been single now for almost a whole year. It's been a nice break, but I really think that I'm ready for a relationship now. It just seems that all the guys I meet are not at all my type. Not that I'm asking for much, but I'm very picky when it comes to anything long-term in my life. You know the movie When Harry Met Sally?? Well, I'm Sally. I'm the worst kind of woman. I'm high-maintainance, but I think that I'm low-maintainance. It's all a very vicious cycle. I don't want to rush into anything, but I do want that feeling of acceptance and adoration from another person who thinks that I am special in every way. They say that no person is perfect until you fall in love with them. I believe that fully, but why can't I find that perfect person???

TV is never the same during an election!!

I was flipping through the television channels this afternoon. I swear, any political matter cracks me up because of the way the media shows it. It's everywhere! I started at Channel 2 and began flipping my way up. This is pretty much how the shows went: Kerry, Kerry, Kerry, cartoons, random old sit-com, Kerry, televangelists, Kerry, cartoons, Kerry, Kerry, Kerry, Kerry, nickelodeon, Kerry, Kerry, etc. I think that you get my idea. Just thought I'd share my random funny thought with you!

Power to the People

I'm really thankful to be living in America right now. I mean, we take so much for granted each day that we are alive. I voted today. I have the opportunity to vote for a candidate whose opinions I agree with. The people have a choice. We have democracy. There are so many countries that do not even offer this priviledge that so many Americans don't even take seriously.

Happy Halloween

So, last night I went to my favorite hangout--a little bar down the road. They had a halloween party and my friends and I all dressed up. I went to my friend Heather's dad's house with Karin to get ready. Karin and Heather were naughty lesbian schoolgirls. I was the fabulous Ms. Marilyn Monroe. We got to the bar and met up with our other friends. Mimi was Ozzy Osborne (and won a prize for her phenomenal costume--complete with bat thanks to me!). Deb was a "high class broad" which is nothing new so technically she did not have a costume!! Anyways, we had a blast just hanging out and singing and stuff. I stayed at Karin's last night and just now got home.

I'm about to have to go get a new phone because my phenomenal miniature computer phone is messed up. The screen is all black and stuff. Then it's off to work. Last Saturday was my last day on the job for real. I no longer have to deal with customers and stuff. I will be working stock for the rest of the time. It's incredible because I don't have to deal with any of the holiday crap associated with retail. I get to choose my own hours and will not have to deal with the day after Thanksgiving, the days before and after Christmas. Instead I will be resting in bed!! This is the first year that I will have this luxury in FIVE years!! I really do deserve this break.

Anyways, I just put a ton of pictures from Halloween up on this blog. I don't know how to put them in one big blog, but maybe I'll learn. In the meantime, enjoy the pictures!!!

That's me as Ms. Marilyn Monroe! 

Kate and Deb--2 High Class Broads! 

Karin and Heather are two trashy, naughty, slutty, lesbian schoolgirls!! 

Check out those fangs! 

Mimi was one hell of a sexy vampire!! 

It's fuckin' Ozzy Osborne!! Sharon!! 

Karin went a little crazy with Jeff. 

Jeff and Ozzy 

Amazing accumulations

You know, it is really amazing just how much stuff one accumulates in their lifetime. I mean, I'm only 23 and already have so much stuff--clothes, books, movies, music, memories and other things that I can't bear to throw away. All those little things that I know I will never use, yet still cannot rid myself of them. It's quite humorous when I think about it all.

No more malls for me!!!

Well, I had an interview at Blue Cross today for a position and have decided to take it. I was really excited about going to the music store, but have decided that the benefits and pay at Blue Cross are much better for me. Anyways, I had to tell my current manager that I'm staying for another few weeks and then tell the manager at the other store that I was not coming to work for them. It was kind of stressing, but he was very understanding. Anyways, three more weeks of retail. I think that I can handle that. It's going to be strange not having to work at the mall for Christmas, but I know that I will love it!!!

My future's so bright, I gotta wear shades!!!

Well, the past few weeks have been really rough on me physically, mentally, and emotionally, but now... Now, the light is shining at the end of the tunnel!! I went in Monday for another interview at the music store and was told that I had the job!! I turned in my notice at the clothing store I work at right after that. I only have a little more than a week there before I leave. It feels like the end of an era... I mean I have been with Lane Bryant for over five years and now I am leaving.

I'm starting to get a little nervous about this new job too. I mean, I am going to have to learn a whole new way of doing things and be the new person. I know that it will be strange at first, but after time, I will be able to do it perfectly!! I am so excited and cannot wait!!!

Friends

It's not often that I meet someone that I would truly consider a friend. I'm a very friendly person, and meet people very easily, but those people are aquaintances. It's very hard to find true friends, and I am very blessed to have a few true friends who I know would help me out in any way needed and I would do the same for them. I appreciate all my true friends, and love them all just like family.

Liquor

I'm not one to go off and get drunk. I just don't see the point of getting that trashed. I mean, if you can't remember what you were doing, what is the fun in it?? Tonight I was having a great time at my friend Jeff's birthday jam. A bunch of my friends were there. One of them was drinking liquor and started a huge fight, called us a bunch of names and basically scared the crap out of me. I am not a confrontational person at all, so that kind of stuff makes me ill. Anyways, I just don't understand the point of getting so trashed that you insult some of the best friends you have. It's really ridiculous when I think about it all. Ugh. What a frickin' wonderful night!!

House Arrest

Last night was one of the worst nights of my life. I was out with some friends and then we all left to go home. I was about to get on the interstate when a car came from the opposite direction with their high beams on. I thought I was getting on the entrance ramp, but miscalculated and went into a ditch. Fortunately some friends were behind me. We went to the house and tried to call a wrecker to get the car out. No one would come. I ended up going to sleep and sleeping for a while.

Now my family is upset with me. I totally understand that. Heck--I'm upset with me probably more so than they are. Anyways, so now I have a curfew. It's kind of funny when I think about it. Not only that, but my dad does not want me hanging out with one of my best friends in the world. I really do not know what to do right now. I am stuck at a crossroad. He already thinks that I'm lazy for not having a full-time job, but it's not like I'm not looking. I am so frustrated, and really have no clue what to do.

Right now, though I'm about to go to bed. Hopefully sleep will help me out.

The joys of retail

Well, tonight I experienced one of the better sides of working retail--preparing for a big sale. I stayed almost a whole hour after I was supposed to get off to prepare for a huge sale that starts tomorrow (Attention Lane Bryant shoppers--20% off the whole store!!) It was ridiculous the amounts of signs I had to put out--banners, easels, small ones, big ones, some down low, some on the ceiling. Ugh!!

I just got home and am about to go to bed. I went to a friends house this evening after work and just chilled out--something I really needed. Another of our friends came over and we stayed up watching old sitcoms--Who's the Boss, Roseanne (Karin's favorite), and The Nanny (my favorite!!). Now I am just dreaming of going to bed. Yeah!!

A little hurricane humor

My aunt and uncle live down in Vero Beach, Florida and had to endure through the hurricanes and storms in the area. My uncle is a very humorous man and sent me this little top ten list:

Top Ten Reasons Hurricane Season is Like Christmas
10. Decorating the house (boarding up windows).
9. Dragging out boxes that haven't been used since last season (camping gear, flashlights).
8. Last minute shopping in crowded stores.
7. Regular TV shows pre-empted for "specials".
6. Family coming to stay with you.
5. Family and friends from out-of-state calling.
4. Buying food you don't normally buy ... and in large quantities.
3. Days off from work.
2. Candles.

Number 1 reason Hurricane Season is like Christmas ...........
At some point you know you're going to have a tree in your house

Music Store

I applied for a job today at F.Y.E. (For Your Entertainment). They have an opening for an assistant manager. I would love to have a job like that. I enjoy all sorts of entertainment, but especially music. To be able to work in an environment where my heart is would be amazing. Anyways, I applied and am going to call in tomorrow.

Speaking of music, I have been singing for as long as I can remember. I love music and music is so much a part of me. There are songs that take me back to good times, bad times, and any other times. Certain songs make me feel good, bad, or ugly. I feel that everyone needs an outlet to release their emotions, and music is mine. Be it singing in a choir, a karaoke bar, the shower, or my car I will always be singing.

Fall is almost here

You know, I really love fall. It's one of my favorite seasons because of all the changes in nature--the leaves, the smells, the temperature, my ALLERGIES!!! I'm allergic to most everything under the sun, but ever since last night, I have been sneezing and blowing my nose like crazy. I am hoping and praying it's just allergies. I can't afford to get sick right now. Lord knows I have enough going on in my life right now. One more thing may be the straw that breaks the camel's back!! Well, it's off to bed for me--well, with the help of some medicine (if I even have any!!)

Ugh...

I left work early today because I was not feeling well. I don't know what it is, but for the last few weeks I have been ill. I've been sick to my stomach, have had trouble eating and sleeping, and have chewed my fingernails to the nubs. A lot of that is from stress and my nerves. I know that, but why after two almost perfect days, are my nerves getting to me?? I don't understand this at all, but I know if it does not stop soon, I will go crazy!!

The Proclaimers

Do you remember that song "500 Miles" by the Proclaimers?? It was in the movie Benny & Joon. Anyways, I work at Hamilton Place Mall, and there is a guy that works on the nightly cleaning crew who looks just like one of the brothers. You know they are twins (and not too terribly attractive). So, most nights when I leave work I see him and just want to break out in song... "and I would walk 500 miles and I would walk 500 more just to be the man who walked a thousand miles to fall down at your door." Sorry--just a random thought that came to me upon hearing that song. It's a great song, one of those that I know I will be singing for a few days because it's so catchy!!

Secrets

I just finished one of the best books. It's called Can You Keep a Secret by Sophie Kinsella. Kinsella is a British author who has written a few other books including the "Shopaholic" trilogy (one of my all-time favorite trilogies ever!!). Anyways, it's about this girl who is on a plane and feels that she is about to die during some turbulance, so she tells all her secrets to the passenger next to her. Ironically, the passenger turns out to be the owner of the company that she works at. Anyways, the book was phenomenal, and it made me think of secrets that I may keep. Honestly, though, I really don't have a lot of secrets that I can think of. I'm a very open person and share my thoughts and feelings very freely. Let's see if I can think of something...

• I would rather not wear any panties at all so that I don't have a line in my pants.
• Sometimes I borrow my sister's t-shirts--and forget to give them back.
• I can't stand doing laundry, so I usually let it pile up until it is absolutely necessary for me to do it.
• I keep my cups from Chick-fil-A and get free cokes a few times a week.
• Sometimes I make cookie dough and don't bake the cookies, but rather freeze the dough and nibble on it for a few weeks.

OK--there were some of my secrets. I know it's not that interesting or anything, but that's all I can really think of right now. Like I said, I'm very open with my thoughts and feelings. I don't have any dark secrets or anything. Nothing too juicy at all. Just a few random things that I thought of.

If you like to read, check out the book though. It's chick-lit at it's finest. I highly recommend it. Geez--Now I'm starting to sound like Lavar Burton on Reading Rainbow!!!

One of those crazy surveys!!!

Every once in awhile you get one of these in your email.....and every once in awhile it's fun to do (although it's pretty annoying!!!).

1) Ever been so drunk you blacked out? Yeah, but only once, and never again!!

2) Did you ever miss school because it was raining? Miss school?? Me!!! I loved school, so nope. Except, of course when the school's were closed due to rain damage and stuff!!

3) Put a body part on fire for amusement? That would be a resounding "Are you freakin' insane"

4) Been hurt emotionally? More times than I wish to share

5) Kept a secret from everyone? You don't actually mean from everyone do you??

6) Had an imaginary friend? I plead the fifth.

7) Cried during a Movie? Yeah--most chick flicks bring a small tear to my eye

8) Had a crush on a teacher? Being an education major myself, I would say yes, I have had a crush on a teacher, but he was in a few classes with me

9) Ever thought an animated character was hot? Animated no, but I still totally crush over Clark Kent/Superman (Dean Cain). Does that count because you know, he's not real!!

10) Had a New Kids on the Block tape? I really hate to say it, but yes. Not only did I have the tapes (yes, that's plural), I had the duffel bag, the sweater, the trading cards, and the animated series on tape. Geez--I'm so embarrased!!

11) Been on stage? Is Gumby green? The stage is my home--I've been on stages in four countries as well as on the Atlantic Ocean. It's totally second nature to me.

12) Cut your own hair? Let's not get into that horrible story!!

Favorites
1) Favorite shampoo? Nexxus

2) Soap? Most anything from Bath and Body Works, including (but not limited to) Warm Vanilla Sugar, Plumeria, White Tea and Ginger, Sweet Pea, Mandarin Orange, and Copa Cabana

3) Color? PINK

4) Day/Night? I love the night life! I love to boogie!

5) Summer or Winter? Winter

6) Fleece or Satin? Fleece

7) Cartoon Character? Ummm... I'm 23

8) Food? Sushi, Ben and Jerry's New York Super Fudge Chunk, Tomatoes, Cucumbers, Cream Cheese, Seafood of any type except shark

9) Commercial? "Can you hear me now??.... Good!"

10) Movies? Do you want a complete listing or what??? Definitely When Harry Met Sally, While you Were Sleeping, Two Weeks Notice, The Sweetest Thing, Superstar, There's Somthing about Mary, Charlie's Angels (both of them), anything with Adam Sandler, City of Angels, Notting Hill, Pretty Woman

11) Subject? Me--no, probably music or movies

12) Non-alcoholic drink? Milk, Soda (Cherry and Vanilla Coke or Dr. Pepper), Apple Juice, Orange Juice, and Water

13 ) Alcoholic drink? Rum and Coke, Mudslides, Margaritas, Red-headed Sluts, B-52s, and Parrot Bay or Malibu straight up

14) People to talk to? All my best friends (and I believe you know who you are so I won't list any names, but I love you all!!!)

RIGHT NOW
1) Wearing?Boxers and a tee-shirt

2) Hair is? Doing the same thing it always does--nothing

3) Feeling? Tired and kind of stressed

4) Eating? No

5) Drinking? No

6)Thinking about? Getting a job

7) Listening to? My fingers walking over the keyboard

8) Talking to? Nobody

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
1) Yourself? If you don't believe in yourself first, who will ever believe in you!!

2) Your friends? Most definitely. I am very fortunate to have many wonderful friends who I can share anything at all with, and they will love me regardless

3) Santa Claus? Well, yes, I do believe in Santa Clause

4) Tooth fairy? Not since I stopped losing teeth!!

5) Destiny/fate? "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD , "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

6) God? Yes. I've been through too much stuff in my life not to believe in a higher power.

FRIENDS AND LIFE
1) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? No

2) Who's the loudest? Most likely, the answer is me!

3)Toughest girl? Wonder Woman

3.5)Smartest girl? Definitely me--the queen of useless trivia!!

4) Who's the shyest? I honestly don't know if I have a single friend who is
truly shy!!! We're all a bunch of loud-mouth, outspoken, brave chicks!!

5) Who's the weirdest? Probably me--I'm a big dork and darn proud of it!!

6) Who do you go to for advice? Usually Melissa, but it really depends on the situation and who is involved.

7) When have you cried the most? My whole senior year, most of last week (especially Friday)

8) What's the worst feeling? Lonliness

9) Who sent this to you? My crazy friend Melissa who has her own blog on here (http://msredjones.blogspot.com)

Well, for those of you that are still reading this, I am very sorry if I bored you all to tears!! Hey--here's a thought--copy and paste this and send it to your friends and drive them absolutely crazy!!!

Love, Marriage, and Jobs

It's been a little while since I last posted an entry. I feel like my life has been spun around in a blender and spat back out at me. After my last entry, I went to a wedding. It was a beautiful day. I saw my friend (and favorite waitress) Lisa get married to a man who must be one of the only few good ones in the world (at least that's how he sounds from everything Lisa's told me). They had a football wedding at a local bar here in town and for the most part of the day we sat around talking and drinking and having a blast. She was beautiful and so happy.

Someday I hope to find a love that is as strong as the one that Lisa and John have. They are so happy with each other and content to spend the rest of their lives together. I've pretty much stopped looking for someone to be with because the majority of men that I meet have been complete dogs--only looking for one thing (and I refuse to give it up straight away). I figure that if I don't look for the ever-illusive "Mr. Right" then maybe, just maybe, *he* will find me. It's just a theory that I am trying out for a little while.

Anyways, I got home and my dad went off on me about staying out all night and not having a full-time job and such. I'm sorry, but it's not like I don't already have a job right now. Granted, it's only part-time, and I do need a full-time job, but I have been looking. I've applied at a number of places. I have a degree and license to teach school, but none of the schools around here are hiring, and even if I got on, there is no guarantee that I will have a job for next school year. So, today, because I was so upset, I applied for about twenty jobs. I just hope that one will come through. I don't know, but we'll see.

Well, I'm about to head off to bed and catch a few zzzz's before work tomorrow. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day than today. I don't know, but I can hope.

Do I have the word "bitch" across my forehead???

I went in to work today, as usual, and the mangager on duty kept getting onto me, telling me to do all sorts of things for her. I mean, FOR HER!!! It was not like she could not do them, it was just *easier* for me to do them than her. Oh, my god--like a little work would not kill you!! And then, to make matters worse, I found out today that I am allergic to my shampoo. I was sneezing all over the store. I was so light-headed for the majority of the night, it was not even funny!!

I found some sanity at one of my favorite places though. I thought it would be strange, and it was for a while, but I put my ghosts in the past and got over it real quick. I saw some of my best friends and had a great time in spite of all the shit that I went through.

My credit card got declined, and I about lost it. Fortunately, I have some fabulous friends who will help me out regardless of what happens. I absolutely love hanging out with those people. No matter how bad I feel, they can always make me feel better. Anyways, I have got to get some sleep before tomorrow. I'm a slave for fashion (literally!!!).

Superheroes aren't the only ones with hidden identities.

We all know that superheroes have hidden identities. Clark Kent is really Superman. Peter Parker is Spiderman. Bruce Wayne is Batman. Diana Prince is Wonder Woman. These people (who aren't real at all) have secret identities, but they keep them hidden to protect themselves. It's all part of their job. I don't know about all you out in cyberspace, but I can tell you that I do not know of any superheroes in this life, at least none that need a secret identity (I consider teachers, doctors, and my friends all superheroes, but they are real people just doing their jobs).

So, if there are no true superheroes with any superpowers like flying or scaling tall buildings in a single jump, why do people put on a front. What is it about society today that makes a person go out of their way to impress others with something that they are not. Now, I am by no means a perfect person, and am probably guilty of doing that same thing, but I cannot stand to be something that I am not. God made me the way I am and I enjoy who I am. If you have a problem with that, too bad. I know that I have real friends who will love me for who I am, not what I act like around certain people.

It's really funny when I think about it. I mean, you meet someone who seems to be wonderful. They are friendly, funny, and seem to be an all-around cool person who I could really enjoy hanging out with. Then, they show their true colors and make a complete ass of themselves. I'm a pretty good judge of character, but when something like that happens it blows my mind.

I am a very open person once I get to know someone. It takes a very long time for me to truly trust a person, but when I do, I can be very open. When a person who I trust makes an ass of themselves and throws something I have told them in my face (completely misinterpreting my words), I get incredibly upset because it makes me feel as though I have lost my good judgment.

I guess the whole point of this little rant is just BE REAL. Be true to yourself and make yourself proud. Who do you really need to impress?? If you can be proud of who you are and confident that people will like you, then you can and will make friends--true friends. Geek--now I'm starting to sound like Stuart Smalley (from Saturday Night Live). So, in honor of his sketches, I will end with this...

"I can do it because I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and gosh darn it... People like me!"

Lyrics

Here are the lyrics to one of my current favorite songs. It's by Melissa Etheridge and is called "I Want to Be in Love."

I have climbed the highest mountain
I have sailed across the sea
I have wrestled with my demons
And woke up with only me
I have been around the block
Three times maybe four
And I think I deserve just a little more

In front of total strangers won't you kiss me
Flowers for no reason but you miss me
Oh I want to be in love
You're standing on the doorstep in the rain
Cause you couldn't wait to see me once again
Oh I want to be in love

I have made some big mistakes
And I've paid a heavy price
I found a little peace between will and sacrifice
I have watched as all my dreams
Went walking out the door
And I think I deserve just a little more

I'm looking for a heart of gold
I'm looking for a hand to hold
A happy end
Strong and kind
Somewhere to rest my troubled mind

In front of total strangers won't you kiss me
Flowers for no reason but you miss me
Oh I want to be in love
On Tuesday light the candles bring me wine
Wednesday morning I won't get to work on time
Oh I want to be in love
Surprise me as I'm stepping off the plane
Take my hand as they play our song again
Oh I want to be in love

Not that I am in love right now or anything. I am very happy being on my own. The only thing that I really miss about being in a relationship is the feeling that someone will do anything and everything to make you happy and comfortable. Oh, wait--I've never actually felt that (well, not for a long period of time, and I was with the guy for years!!). That part about looking for the hand to hold, the heart of gold, and the resting the troubled mind really gets me every time.

I'm beginning to think that only about 2% of men are capable of making good mates. The other 98% are all about getting you into bed and using you. Wait--I'd say that 50% are like that, the other 48% will give you the impression that they are a "real catch" then show their asses at the first chance that they get. Me personally, I am much better off being alone right now. What's the point of looking for anything if I know in the end I'm going to get screwed???

Rain

It's raining here. Not a very heavy, thunderstorm-type rain, but a calm and peaceful, steady spray. Not the best driving conditions, but I just got home and stood in the rain for a few minutes. I got soaked, but I am so relaxed now. This past weekend was crazy for me, both mentally and physically, for reasons that I don't care to post. The rain today really calmed me and made me feel more at peace.

Right now, I'm just sitting at my computer listening to the Shrek soundtrack because it has two of the best songs on it: Rufus Wainwright's "Hallelujah" and Jason Wade's (I think) "You Belong to Me." I'm just listening to these two songs over and over right now. If you've never heard either of them, I would highly recommend checking out the soundtrack.

Maybe I'm just dingy!!

So, I thought that this blog was a phenomenal idea. I mean, I can write anything that I want and the whole world can see it and comment on it, rather than just the few who have AOL like me. So, last night I went and set this up. I was so excited about the potential of meeting new people and getting feedback from my occasional rants and rages. I wrote my first entry, and was very proud of it. I thought I published it. I really did. So, I go to check it this morning and it is gone.

Wait--I'm just a huge dingbat. I apparently did publish it. The blog homepage said that I did not have one on there, but just out of curiosity I checked my own blog and did find it. Wow--I'm really blonde sometimes!!

Well, I am about to run and go pay some bills. Maybe when I get back I can actually put something with substance on here rather than just going off about computers and blogs and stuff. Ciao!

Joining the greater blog movement...

So, I began my first blog a few monthes ago on America Online's little blog program, but have since decided that it is not friendly to everyone else on the internet who may actually have something to say about my entries but cannot comment on them because they are not involved with a snooty money-hungry internet service. Now, don't get me wrong, I like AOL alright (for the moment), but if you want to say something, you should be allowed to speak your mind whenever and to whoever. So, I thought that I would give this thing a try. If you happen to enjoy my ramblings, please feel free to comment. If you don't enjoy my ramblings please feel free to comment. Hope to hear from you guys soon.